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lives on a small farm in Casco Michigan along with her husband Ken, son Brandon , grandson Jordan and numerous "critters". She is also the mother of Justin Rowell. She is a "free spirit" wanting to "get lost in the sparkle and fade". She will someday....just watch her!

Friday, January 8, 2010

Self Portraits............

If there were ever photo's that I would consider as TRUE self portraits....you're looking at them.  The blur is "Distorted Diana" and the other is "I Walk The Line".

Although I do learn more and more about "me"/"I" almost on a daily basis....what I am learning is only leading me to more and more frustrations....and yes....some anger as well. 

I can only hope that one day....these blurs will finally become clear and if I step off the line....I won't fall to far down and someone would be there to help me get back up.  I only know of one that would.....and not think it an inconvenience .....no matter what.       I thank you....from my "Heart and Soul".......I thank you.

Thursday, January 7, 2010


So much going on with me lately. So many worries I lock away inside that no one knows about.  Builds up until I feel like I am going to burst.  Sometimes I will share my worries....most of the time I do not.

No one here really to talk to......at least to be listened to with interest.  " Conversations" in passing. Today I broke down and cried in the middle of the grocery store....I was fine....and then I wasn't!  I don't like to cry....but I especially don't like to do it in public! 

Maybe I am just frustrated?  I need to find some sort of balance again.  Very diffacult to do in a "lopsided" house.